So I received the official offer today. She was the first person I wanted to tell about it. We had spent so many languor filled hours dreaming of what it would be like for me to be through all of my financial woes, always thinking of the day we could go on vacation together. Even to be able to go to the movies without feeling guilty that I was either neglecting something else to be able to spend the money, or feeling guilty that she was paying...
She was the first person I thought of when I heard the news, and I could not call her to tell her about it. We didn't get to laugh and celebrate that I had finally become a real employee.
I did email her, but email is only cool when you have a lot to say, and aren't too sure that what you say will come out right the first time. It is pretty lame for good news.
Ah, well. For now, I celebrate for my accomplishments alone. This is my choosing, and eventually, I will have all of those bills payed off and I will have dealt with the emotional baggage left over from my failed marriage as well.
This is the Universe telling me to enjoy this milestone to the fullest!

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